I spend this past weekend looking into that expression more deeply. I met Bryan in Poughkeepsie. he works in purchasing and is an amateur beekeeper.
"Yeah, I used to feel a lot of shame about that," he admitted, "But after a few decades, I really stopped caring. One more thrice-fooling on top of everything else hardly registers anymore. I just do volunteer work a lot, and I feel pretty good about myself these days."